Aren't new beginnings wonderful? A day to start over... to forget what happened last year and eagerly await what lies ahead. Isn't it so true that if we knew what was ahead of us in our life we would miss out on so much day to day stuff that help make the big picture?
Happy 2013 to you... may this year be filled with lots of memories and special moments. Remember to thank God for every moment He has given you. Let's cherish each moment God has given us! Happy New Year!
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Thursday, December 27, 2012
New Years Resolutions...
New Years Resolutions!! That term gives me a stomach ache full of nervousness followed by apprehension followed again by memories of the resolutions yet to be met from the previous years... why do we do them? I'm a goal setter... I'm a planner... I like New Years resolutions because it gives me hopes as to how I can be a better me in the NewYear.
This may sound funny to some of you because most try to be more in the new year, however, I have recognized how I need to be less in the new year so that I could eventually become more. Here's an issue I have. I have a tendancy to give all I can into relationships. I am the one who organizes, calls, apologizes, encourages, etc. I often end up questioning, hurting and generalizing my bitter feelings with people who deserve my patience, love and understanding. This year I am resolving to put less work into people and to love more. I want to love people unconditionally. I have learned lately that the most I can do is love people, I can't make them love me.
It's hard when you have my personality. It really is in me to love people and to be loved. I don't hurt people intentionally, I feel expectations heavily on my shoulders and strive to exceed them. I look forward to a year of releasing expectations of people and listening more to what God says.
On a side note... a few more of the resolutions I have:
Cook More
Bake More
Worry less
Read more
Start Running... (ha. This one's a little far fetched, I am going to try though.. I have a desire for it.)
...and the typical weight loss goals.
2013 is bound to be a wonderful year. Jesus has given me the Grace and Mercy that I don't deserve and I want to be more like Him in the coming year. Day by Day will be my new tagline for 2013. :)
This may sound funny to some of you because most try to be more in the new year, however, I have recognized how I need to be less in the new year so that I could eventually become more. Here's an issue I have. I have a tendancy to give all I can into relationships. I am the one who organizes, calls, apologizes, encourages, etc. I often end up questioning, hurting and generalizing my bitter feelings with people who deserve my patience, love and understanding. This year I am resolving to put less work into people and to love more. I want to love people unconditionally. I have learned lately that the most I can do is love people, I can't make them love me.
It's hard when you have my personality. It really is in me to love people and to be loved. I don't hurt people intentionally, I feel expectations heavily on my shoulders and strive to exceed them. I look forward to a year of releasing expectations of people and listening more to what God says.
On a side note... a few more of the resolutions I have:
Cook More
Bake More
Worry less
Read more
Start Running... (ha. This one's a little far fetched, I am going to try though.. I have a desire for it.)
...and the typical weight loss goals.
2013 is bound to be a wonderful year. Jesus has given me the Grace and Mercy that I don't deserve and I want to be more like Him in the coming year. Day by Day will be my new tagline for 2013. :)
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Again?
So this is my second blogpost and brace yourselves, it's on death again. Or shall I say it's on life. I don't know why I always want to write my posts on this topic, maybe because it's what I spend a lot of time thinking about.
Often times I ponder death. This is the latest lesson for me as of the past few days I have been pondering life. Not just life but eternal life. I have found myself asking for God to give me glimpses of Heaven. This is new to me seeing as I have feared death most of life. I have face grief in many unusal circumstances (with my brother and my father, sometime I will explain the "unusual" I am speaking of.)
As a believer, I have always known where my hope is. My hope is in Heaven, however, with the pain we face here on earth, it's hard to actually and truly believe it. I have been thinking about a situation that happened this past week. A 26 year old who loved Jesus, gone. Like that! Gone! Our lives are not in our control. I sat here tonight and played some worship music, all I wanted to do is worship and pray. The song "I can sing of your love forever" came on and all I could do was envision the multitudes in Heaven singing and dancing in God's glory. The tears started flowing and they didn't stop. How wonderful it must be to be at the feet of Jesus and singing of his love.... forever!!! And then as I wiped my tears away I started to thinking about God's promises. Revelation 21 speaks of the New Jerusalem. It is the NEW Heaven and the NEW earth.... guess what??? God is dwelling with us there! This is the promise I cling to: "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." (Rev 21:4) I don't know about you, but that blows me away!!!
I think about the pain and grief that I have watched my mom and brother go through, I know the pain and the grief I have gone through personally. I think the reason why we feel this pain and grief is because we are all made to live eternally... we yearn for it.
Today as we may be feeling grief, saddness and loss... cling to the Lord. God has given HIS son for us, He knows the pain we feel. I rejoice in my future and hope in eternity, through Christ alone.
Often times I ponder death. This is the latest lesson for me as of the past few days I have been pondering life. Not just life but eternal life. I have found myself asking for God to give me glimpses of Heaven. This is new to me seeing as I have feared death most of life. I have face grief in many unusal circumstances (with my brother and my father, sometime I will explain the "unusual" I am speaking of.)
As a believer, I have always known where my hope is. My hope is in Heaven, however, with the pain we face here on earth, it's hard to actually and truly believe it. I have been thinking about a situation that happened this past week. A 26 year old who loved Jesus, gone. Like that! Gone! Our lives are not in our control. I sat here tonight and played some worship music, all I wanted to do is worship and pray. The song "I can sing of your love forever" came on and all I could do was envision the multitudes in Heaven singing and dancing in God's glory. The tears started flowing and they didn't stop. How wonderful it must be to be at the feet of Jesus and singing of his love.... forever!!! And then as I wiped my tears away I started to thinking about God's promises. Revelation 21 speaks of the New Jerusalem. It is the NEW Heaven and the NEW earth.... guess what??? God is dwelling with us there! This is the promise I cling to: "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." (Rev 21:4) I don't know about you, but that blows me away!!!
I think about the pain and grief that I have watched my mom and brother go through, I know the pain and the grief I have gone through personally. I think the reason why we feel this pain and grief is because we are all made to live eternally... we yearn for it.
Today as we may be feeling grief, saddness and loss... cling to the Lord. God has given HIS son for us, He knows the pain we feel. I rejoice in my future and hope in eternity, through Christ alone.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
My Fathers Day lesson.
I've been wanting to start blogging for a while but I know that I don't have anything interesting to say... Although today I was thinking about one of the most valuable lessons I have ever learned. Today is a good day to share it, with it being Fathers Day and all.
Most of you probably already know this about me, but some of you may not know how God has molded me through what has been one of the most painful things to experience in my life. My father left my mother, brother and myself when I was 2 years old. Growing up I was grateful to have a step dad in my life, but fought to understand the reasoning behind why a man would leave his children behind. I would see how my friends interacted with their fathers, I would hear songs on the radio that drew me to tears and I would lay awake at night wondering "what ifs." I felt guilt through out the years as to the things I could do to "try harder" to be a daughter to my father. These feelings came and went over the years. When I was about 23 years old, I received a phone call from a care home my father was in. I was told that I was listed as the person responsible for my father and they were calling to let me know about a recent decision he had made. I was confused, to say the least. I went and visited him that night with my mom and throughout the next couple months, I had a chance to be with him while he was dying. I would never understand the reason why I received that phone call, but I am grateful I did. As I watched my father as he was in his final hours on this earth, I was overwhelmed by God's grace. I watched and heard my mother, brother and myself forgive him. I held his hand and prayed for him. I shed many tears as I watched a man who no longer had control over his life. I received the grace that God had given me and I watched God's grace pour over my father that day.
On Father's Day, I am grateful for many things. More than anything, I am thankful for the love of our Heavenly Father... the grace that He has given me is way more than I ever deserve. I am thankful for my step-dad who didn't have to be, but has always loved me like his own. I am thankful for my father, he gave me life and taught me a valuable lesson and with that said, the pain that was endured through all the years was all worth it, even if it isn't how I would have planned it.
My heart resonates this song today:
Grace, grace, God’s grace,
Grace that will pardon and cleanse within;
Grace, grace, God’s grace,
Grace that is greater than all our sin.
Happy Father's Day to all of you out there, whatever your story is, there is a purpose behind it.
Most of you probably already know this about me, but some of you may not know how God has molded me through what has been one of the most painful things to experience in my life. My father left my mother, brother and myself when I was 2 years old. Growing up I was grateful to have a step dad in my life, but fought to understand the reasoning behind why a man would leave his children behind. I would see how my friends interacted with their fathers, I would hear songs on the radio that drew me to tears and I would lay awake at night wondering "what ifs." I felt guilt through out the years as to the things I could do to "try harder" to be a daughter to my father. These feelings came and went over the years. When I was about 23 years old, I received a phone call from a care home my father was in. I was told that I was listed as the person responsible for my father and they were calling to let me know about a recent decision he had made. I was confused, to say the least. I went and visited him that night with my mom and throughout the next couple months, I had a chance to be with him while he was dying. I would never understand the reason why I received that phone call, but I am grateful I did. As I watched my father as he was in his final hours on this earth, I was overwhelmed by God's grace. I watched and heard my mother, brother and myself forgive him. I held his hand and prayed for him. I shed many tears as I watched a man who no longer had control over his life. I received the grace that God had given me and I watched God's grace pour over my father that day.
On Father's Day, I am grateful for many things. More than anything, I am thankful for the love of our Heavenly Father... the grace that He has given me is way more than I ever deserve. I am thankful for my step-dad who didn't have to be, but has always loved me like his own. I am thankful for my father, he gave me life and taught me a valuable lesson and with that said, the pain that was endured through all the years was all worth it, even if it isn't how I would have planned it.
My heart resonates this song today:
Grace, grace, God’s grace,
Grace that will pardon and cleanse within;
Grace, grace, God’s grace,
Grace that is greater than all our sin.
Happy Father's Day to all of you out there, whatever your story is, there is a purpose behind it.
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